Saturday, October 31, 2009
Well this is the second time I have been told I am going to go to HELL!!! the first time was from a friends brother before i even became Muslim. I swear I thought he was going to an intervention when he found out i was thinking of converting to Islam...He looked at me like i needed and exorcism performed or something...and now I converted and I let all my "Friends" that I have known from High School know how happy I am and that I am Muslim now and one of my "friends" that I have known since 10th grade told me that I am going to a devil's hell!!! I told him I was sorry for him and his intolerance!!! May Allah (SWT) bless him with the truth!!
Well I was sick last night and all day so BYE BYE Cleaning plans!!! My phone didn't ring but one time today and that was Aziz checking to see if i was feeling better...he was at work all day. I slept most of the day and I feel a little better just no energy at all. I will sleep tonight and then insha Allah I will be good tomorrow. Then back to my cleaning plan...I have to much stuff..I keep thinking where am I gonna put it all? I really have no idea maybe i will have to down size but its hard to through things out...We are thinking we may move soon and get our own place but having roommates is so much cheaper. I for one would like to have more privacy and quiet but we need to save some money too..decisions...decisions!! I want to do whats best for us for our future. Aziz is so sweet though. He told his friend that his goal is to make sure that I am happy that he never wants to see me sad..I could never imagine a better man than him!! I am trying (right now) to Imagine someone better and he is the only image i see!! He makes me laugh when i want to cry, he makes me feel good when i feel bad, he makes me happy when i am sad, he lifts me up when i am down, he lets me know how imprtant i am, he tells me how smart and pretty i am...So i am so lucky that Allah (SWT) brought him to me. good night sisters may you have sweet dreams
Friday, October 30, 2009
I had such big plans today to get my bedroom all cleaned and organized again...and the bathroom all clean and all the clean laundry put away and of course I stayed up really late again last night...I so need to get my days and nights switched back...we still havent really got back on track since Ramadan....but all my plans were ruined with one little phone call and 4 little words "Can you work today" so i went to work was only suppose to work from 1 to 5 but ended up being 1 to 10 ugggg....I am so tired and the Tips were bad because it was raining and noone wanted to leave their house to go eat...So my plan is for tomorrow to get it all done...insha Allah...my phone doent ring tomorrow!!!
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Me and Aziz stayed up really late last night talking with friends and then he was helping me with my Arabic so i can do the prayer in Arabic. So we slept in late and then I got up and got ready I wore my pretty PINK Hjab for Breast Cancer Awareness today and my favorite maxi dress....and when I got done I woke him up to get ready..I went down stairs and made tea and then we went to this whole sale store and Aziz got a couple of hats and this toy that is a flashlight but if you push the button it shocks you hard...he got me with it at the store!!! He laughed so much...I told him i will get you later...ha ha ha!!! I got three brooches very pretty and a butterfly necklace. then we went to eat Chinese Food I had Sweet and Sour Chicken and rice and a veggie egg roll and he had some stuff with shrimp and pasta...Then we went to get his hair cut...Boy did he need it....even though his curly hair was cute. Then we went to Karate and now we are home!! Now I am sitting here watching him play the flashlight trick on his friends and feeling joy and happiness with each of his laughs and smiles...but we had a Fun day just relaxing and hanging out together. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!!
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
I am sorry I havent posted in a while but I have been busy...but I have a little time tonight so I thought I would update on my experience in the small town i went to. Well nothing out of the ordinary happened noone said anything bad to me..Just strange looks of surprise. I felt a little like I didnt belong there anymore or something. but other than that everything is good.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Well I am going back home on Sunday so Tomorrow will be the big day that I wear My scarf out. I have to stop to get gas tomorrow before I leave so we will see...I will post and let you all know whats up!!! I am nervous but I decided that I am not gonna let it bother me anymore I am a Muslim now I am proud of it and I will not be ashamed, embarrassed, or let other peoples opinions bother me again...I can't let it bother me...thats it!!!
Friday, October 23, 2009
Well a relative is having surgery and I have to go back to the city where I am from to take care of them for 2 days. I know that I am gonna be treated like a leper because of the Hijab...I live in a big city and there are alot of different religions no one really cares if you have a scarf on or not you get an occasional stare but....I am going to a small town that is only Christian and a few Catholics mostly rednecks that are closed minded. I want to be strong and I have already cried once about it....I just really dont know what to expect...I am WORRIED!!!
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Salamz Sisters....I worked as a waitress for 13 hours today....My FEET HURT so bad!!! Aziz is so sweet when he gets out of the shower he is going to rub them for me!!!He is the BEST!!! I have to work 11 hours tomorrow...I hope I will get used to the standing all day soon...My bosses mother is visiting from Morocco, she liked the scarf I was wearing today sooo I am going on Wednesday to buy her one as a gift. She works hard at the cafe too she deserves a pretty scarf. But Girls I am very tired and I have to get up early so good night!
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Salam Alaikum I am off for a walk at the track where Aziz plays soccer....Walking on Sunday, Karate on Monday, Work for 12 hours on Tuesday, Karate on Wednesday, What to do on Thursday, Friday, and Saturday!!!hmmm maybe go to the gym I dont know??? Later Sisters....
Salamz Sisters, Some of you have been asking about my mom? How is she with the Hijab now? Well she lives 2 hours away from me so i dont see her that much, She hasn't said anything more about it. I think she is going to be ok about it though...She saw me in it got over the initial shock...We will have to see what she says next time i see her and I am not sure when that will be. My Dad is going to be a different story....I dont get to see him hardly at all he works all the time and is gone away for most of each month and I just dont see him. I havent even told him i converted, I am sure my mom has told him but he has not seen me in the Hijab yet and I am sure he will not be as acceptable and I will get the Why are you being stupid lecture from him. So I am waiting on the date very anxiously!! I really just wish i could avoid that day forever but I know I can't. So I will pray about it...leave it to Allah (swt). Well Sisters I need to go do some Laundry uggg...so I will post again later.
I went to this wholesale store with my mom and they had a couple of pretty square scaves that i bought....square hijabs are a little different to wear but i wore it today to the grocery store and i have to say i loved it!! It was silky and soft on my skin and i am going to wear it to visit my friend Fatima tomorrow...but its late so good night...later Sisters!!
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Well I went to the grocery store and i decided to make roast with potatoes, carrots, squash, cabbage, and onion. I am making sort of a tagine or an American take on the tagine i might make some couscous but we may just eat it with bread....probably with bread...OHHH i had my phone in my hand I was going to text message Aziz and i heard a key in the door and he got off early tonight i was so HAPPY....
I stayed up way to late last night!!! but I had so much fun!!! I love sleeping but i always feel yucky if I sleep too much. I am hungry need to figure out what to make for dinner maybe a roast and some couscous...I need to go make me some Moroccan tea that always makes me feel better and have a piece of my cake...like i need that!! and then i will go to the store and get some groceries...i will post about my evening with all my room mates the Moroccan Brothers....Aziz is working til 11pm...i miss him when he is at work so much!!!Later Sisters!!!
I got a big surprise tonight....and they had it planned since we went to the mosque today...We were all standing outside and my Fiance and all of his room mates were talking in Moroccan arabic and of course unless they are talking about tea, bread, the cat, or some other easy words then I have no clue what they are saying...but they were talking about me planning a PARTY to CELEBRATE me becoming a MUSLIM!!! well as you know from my earlier post that I have been cleaning and organizing my Fiances room all evening while he is at work until 2am...so he calls me and says that he has to stop by the store and get some drinks...because if you know Moroccans they stay up really late and they eat at night...strange but after 2 years I am getting used to it...So he gets home and I had decided to take a shower and put makeup on so i wouldnt look like the cleaning lady and he comes and looks at his room and he loves it and says ok put your scarf over your head its time for the party. I was like what party is it someones birthday or what he said your party for becoming muslim...I was so happy that these guys who i love like my own brothers had thought about me and love me enough to do something so kind and generous for me. I have pics I will put them on when i email them from Aziz's iphone. and that is my PARTY STORY...goodnight Sisters!!
Friday, October 16, 2009
Well I am organizing my Fiances Closet....guys WHY are they so messy!! I swear I am scared of that closet there are Jinn lurking in there I am sure...I told his room mates if I scream come save me...they just laughed but I was SERIOUS!! I also am cleaning the rest of the room too while he is at work SURPRISE...the funny part is he won't be able to find anything and he will be calling me saying "Mitsy where is this and where is that and have you seen this or that"...of course my answer will be its in its place if you look its there....last time I cleaned he said OMG my mom used to do this I cant find anything now...lol but then after he settles in he is so relaxed and he tells me thank you I like coming to my room now it is nice!! Well Sisters my break is over I need to go back to work!!!
My Fiance has named me A'ishah...I liked Asmarah but he said no that A'ishah fits me better...I love that song by Cheb Khaled - Aisha also by Outlandish. i will put some links to videos if you havent heard it please listen to it the one by Cheb Khaled is in french but the Outlandish one is in english. Outlandish is Awesome...3 guys Moroccan, Indian, and Hispanic. Love Love them.
Cheb Khaled Link
Cheb Khaled Link
I went to the Mosque today I looked so pretty in my new dress told my fiance Please dont forget to take my pic for my blog....and we went home and he said i am going to take a nap and you go get food while i sleep...so i went to get the food and i came back and then I changed clothes and then he says "What about the picture?".....I was upset i forgot to take the pic of what i consider my new favorite dress of all time i want more of them in different colors....
I got a new Maxi dress today!!!! I LOVE SHOPPING....but its bad...i need to save money for some very important things!! So I need a few more clothes so i can be more modest so a little more shopping and then NO MORE :( :( :( so sad but its a must...but my new dress is so pretty and I got some costume jewelry and a cute brooch and a flower pin to put on my hijab I am excited...I am going to wear it to Mosque tomorrow....so maybe I will have my Fiance take a picture of me and I will put it on here so you can all see it....but I have a story to tell...right now I am kind of broke I told my room mates that I will buy and prepare my food separate because I dont have very much money and I have to be cheep and plus I am dieting....then I said I need new clothes because I dont have alot of modest clothes....then I said I need to lose weight but i need help to stay on track....So I told my Fiance Aziz that I need to pray about all this and Allah will give me the answers....WELLLL...Aziz said Ok Mitsy you can come to my Karate Class two days a week and I will train you in fitness and then you can join my gym and train there....then my Friend from Pakistan he is Muslim too...he said to my Fiance do you care if I give Mitsy a gift and he said I am so happy for her becoming muslim I want to give her some money to buy some modest clothes...then I went to work and my boss he is muslim too said...I have a deal to make with you...I will give you free food, breakfast lunch and dinner plus snacks everyday for six months and see if you eating healthy Moroccan food will make you lose weight and if it does I want to use you as an advertisement for my healthy food....So I was like...in SHOCK...because the day I converted is the day I prayed for all the things I needed help with....And I was just so happy and excited and shocked and it was just indescribable how Allah answered all of my prayers like that...Allah is GREAT!!!! But Sisters I need to sleep so i will get up to pray and go to the Mosque tomorrow!!! Good Night!!
Well I met with my mom today and everything went ok...She is still not totally comfortable with it but i think she will be ok she told me i still looked pretty but she loves my hair and will miss seeing it...I can understand her view but if she understood Islam she would see that it is the best...The best part was after I visited my mom...My fiance and I went to visit friends and we had a great time and then we went to another friends house and had Moroccan tea and talked about religion and family and stuff and one of the friends just got back from Morocco and he had videos of his sisters wedding and all the dresses were so beautiful. I am excited about my wedding and I want to have a moroccan wedding they are so beautiful. and they get to change into alot of different dresses. insha Allah my wedding is like that.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Well I told my mom that she needs to know that i am muslim now and that when she comes today that i will be wearing the Hijab...OH MY....she said "You aren't going with me anywhere if you are wearing that sh*t on your head!!!" I was shocked that her reaction was so strong...I cried....but then I told her that I am sorry Mom that you will be embarrassed to be with me but i love you and respect you and i wish that you will love and respect my choice...she said, "You dont have to wear that thing on your head around me!!" I told her mom this thing is called a Hijab and I am not wearing it for you or for the neighbor or anyone else I dont care what people think I am muslim and I am wearing it because Allah says to wear it that it is good and the correct way for a woman to be respected for who she is not what she looks like. So when she comes i am wearing the Hijab and she can decide to stay or go....Insha Allah she stays!!!
Well, since i converted to Islam on 10/13/2009 I have been wearing the Hijab...I havent seen my mom, she is coming to my city tomorrow!!! What to do....she has not seen me in the Hijab, not even a pic of me in the Hijab sooooo, I am anxious because my family are non-muslim and my parents are on the fence about me wearing the Hijab. I am not ashamed to wear the Hijab i just dont want to here the lectures and the whys because i have already heard all that and when I try to answer the whys they DO NOT LISTEN anyway. I tried to give my mom some literature that i got from the Mosque for her to understand Islam a little better and she didnt even read them I guess I will just wear it and get her over the shock now.
Well I started my Fiance's Karate class today after it was over my first question to him was "ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME"....LOL...I am tired but it is worth it....I need to lose some weight...so I am gonna do that for exercise plus maybe join the gym...I dont know yet....here is a pic of my Fiance aka Sensei...LOL
I am one lucky girl, he is the best man I have ever met in my life...and of all the girls in the world he LOVES me!!!!
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Well I finished all my tshirts...and now I can move. I am moving to the city that my fiance lives in...I packed and I am there now...I am trying to get all of my stuff organized...I need to go shopping and get more hangers i dont think i will have enough to hang my clothes. I have limited space so more has to hang up instead of going in the drawers. I need some little baskets to organize in too...I like organizing its keeping it that way that is the problem....lol....but anyways back to work for me...hope everyone has a great and blessed day...
Friday, October 9, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
I have been working on this one design trying to get it lined up for hours and there are these knobs you have to turn to tighten the screen down and you have to tighten and untighten over an over until you get it right well my hands hurt soooo bad...I feel like crying. I talked to my fiance on the phone he said to take a break and remove myself from it and drink some Moroccan tea and then go back and try it so i did and finally it came together but its late so I decided to leave it lined up and then tomorrow I will print the 133 shirts that I have to do. Hopefully I will get them done...Insha Allah!!!
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
I swear I will be a scarfaholic too...I am already collecting some and I haven't even started wearing the Hijab fulltime yet...so I can see me being like this too!!! Click this link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8MbZ14Lv7dA and watch this video...actually...I like alot of her videos...hijab, makeup, etc....CHeCk ThEm OuT!!!
Hi Emoolie.....thanks for following me...I hope your well...I am following you too now....I'm not so sure about this blogging yet I hope I am intersting enough to get more followers...I think I am a little boring myself but other people may think different who knows...but anyways....Marhabin...that is Welcome in Arabic.....
Today was not a good day....I am working for my mom and dad doing screenprinting...and nothing would work my stuff wouldn't line up and I was getting frustrated and I even cried a little...THEN....I thought HELP ME ALLAH so I stopped what I was doing and I prayed for patience so that I could get my stuff all lined up before i stopped for the day so it would be ready for me to work tomorrow....AND.....all i can say is....THANK YOU ALLAH...because I felt a calmness and I stopped crying and then I went back to work and everything just came together....Al-Humdulilah!!!
Monday, October 5, 2009
I went shopping today at Wal-Mart because i currently live in a small town Wal-Mart is like, i guess you could say, a rednecks mall...LOL...but there were some cute scarfs ON SALE $3 WOW...I got a white one with lime green and purple flowers on the end with really pretty fringe and a white one with lime green stripes on the end also a brown and gold one and a pink and white one with sparkles...I LOVE SPARKLES!! Also they had these really cool sweaters for $10 that kinda have a scarf built into them so if you wanted to be covered through a scarf on and run to the store they are good for that. I got a brown and a black one.....I love to shop...that concludes my shopping spree at Wally World...
Amazing!!!He teaches Karate and he is great!! He works so hard and he is the smartest man I know honestly. I am not being biased because i Love him. He is genuinely smart and kind and honest...I could go on and on. Thank you Allah for sending me this Angel.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
I am having a little bit of trouble with my family...They dont understand Islam and at this time are not willing to learn about it and when i talk to them about it they dont really try to understand what i tell them...Its hard but its not going to discourage me. I feel like this is right for me so I have to do whats best for myself. I am a people pleaser and have always tried to make everyone happy resulting in me not being the happy one...but since I was introduced to Islam and started praying things in my life are changing and getting better. I am the Happiest I have been in my whole life and I believe it will just keep getting better...Insha Allah!!!
This is me and my Fiance he is from Morocco but lives here in the US..We have known each other for 2 years. He is a great guy..He introduced me to Islam and I am greatful to him because I have never had a strong religion I tried lots of churchs and never felt like i belonged...but I believe that Allah is the one and only God and I feel better the more I study and learn the better I feel.
I think the hardest part of covering yourself after you are used to wearing shorts and tank tops is getting used to the heat. Its still warm here in Oklahoma. Just now starting to get cool. I think the winter and fall and spring will be a little better than the summer. So I decided while I am studying Islam that I would occasionally wear the Hijab out. Like to the Mosque, and there is a Moroccan Restaurant that we go to called CousCous Cafe and to visit some of our Muslim Friends. I think it is helping me get used to it though.