Friday, October 23, 2009

WORRIED

Well a relative is having surgery and I have to go back to the city where I am from to take care of them for 2 days. I know that I am gonna be treated like a leper because of the Hijab...I live in a big city and there are alot of different religions no one really cares if you have a scarf on or not you get an occasional stare but....I am going to a small town that is only Christian and a few Catholics mostly rednecks that are closed minded.  I want to be strong and I have already cried once about it....I just really dont know what to expect...I am WORRIED!!!

7 comments:

  1. I know how you feel. I feel the same way the first time I went to my hometown in hijab. Insha'Allah you will be strong enough to deal with anything that comes your way and your relative will make it from the surgery successfully. Just rely on Allah for strength during that time and make lots of du'a to get through the short time there.

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  2. I felt the same way going back to my small town. I actually didn't wear the hijab the whole time I was there, other than when I went to my parents' church. It will be hard and people might make comments, but you might also get a chance to dispel bad ideas about islam and muslims. Don't forget to smile ;-)

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  3. be strong dear..i know you can go through this ya...pray to Allah a lot ...take care...

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  4. Thank You for your encouragement...I really havent left the house since I got here so no problem, but tomorrow i have to go to the bank and the post office so we will see what happens!!!insha Allah people will be nice!!

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  5. Ah, so you're there now? May the Lord bless and keep you as you are going about your business. Being natural is SO big a part of the battle in getting others to accept it as normal. I've been covering all but hands and face for a couple of months now, friends are commenting that I look like a 'real hijabi' now - like I've always worn it, or whatever. My city is not particularly small (nearly 1 000 000 people), but it is 95% Catholic, and I could almost certainly count on the fingers of one hand the number of 'local' (non-tourist) hijabis. I've been teased about Allah, but I've had old world gentleman types and bureaucrats treat me with extraordinary respect. So you God willing will get a fair dose of the latter as well as anything else you may run across :D

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  6. Thank You....for commenting Caraboska...My town is like 3,500 people no strangers here everyone knows everyone and it is full of closed minded people alot of racist people before I converted one of my friends Brothers who is a Christian told me I was going to HELL if I wasnt Christian and there are alot of people like him here....Its strange how they are I grew up here and I am not like them I am open to all races and religions...I think it is very sad for people to be that way.Even people within my own family I am sometimes ashamed to be related to them for some of the comments they make about others.I say people are people we are all created by the same GOD the one and only Allah (SWT) and those who choose to believe otherwise should keep there bad comments to themselves. But I have not gone anywhere yet because I have been taking care of a sick relative...but there is not one muslim person in this town..I am the only one...and insha Allah I get to go home tomorrow to my Muslim Family so i can be welcomed and loved!!!

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  7. So you managed to get away without having to go to the bank? Maybe it's better that way... It might also be not just the size of your town. I mean, my folks live in a small town (maybe 5000 or so people) too, but it's back East. Very different kettle of fish, I think. I would imagine it takes a good deal of courage to be visibly non-Christian in your neck of the woods.

    I can't resist commenting on your Christian family and acquaintances who are telling you you're on your way to hell if you aren't a Christian. It is very true that there are certain spiritual matters we really do have to get right or it can affect our eternity. The problem is that if you are telling someone they have to be a particular religion in order to avoid going to hell, you are all but inviting them to commit idolatry. I mean, adopting a religion (or remaining in one) just because you're afraid of what will happen if you don't, or because you want some kind of reward for it, amounts to worshiping not God, but your own desire to avoid hell or go to heaven, etc. So to me, we can't be inviting people to accept a given religion, or encouraging them to stay in that religion, for those kinds of reasons.

    I personally believe it is possible to be monotheist and Christian, and indeed that Christianity offers a solution for avoiding the problem of worshiping one's own works - in the sense of thinking that one's good works will get one into heaven - in a way that I haven't seen in other religions. I like to invite people I come into contact with to think about that. But I don't want to go any further than that, because last time I checked, there was only one God, and I am not He...

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